Stuck in a Rut/New Beginnings

As you can tell from my post below, I have been pretty busy at the Rockwater trying to hold down the fort as over 80 brides storm in and out this summer. I have been at this job for almost 6 months, and it has been a very rocky road. I absolutely loathed the job for the first few months because it is incredibally stressfull (to me, maybe not everyone). It has slowly gotten better because a lot of really amazing staff members have been hired for the summer season and they brighten my day, everyday. I'm not sure what I am going to do when they all go home/back to uni in September. I don't know if the job is worth it if I am unhappy everyday. Hmmm...things to ponder...

Anyways, back to the title of this post. I have been stuck in a rut the last few years. I have never been one of those people who knew in their heart what they wanted to do with their life since they were 5 years old. I have no burning desire, or passion that leads me in any particular direction. I always just thought "whatever, I'm young, I can figure that all out later!"....Yeah well, somewhere along the line I fell asleep behind the wheel. In May I woke up. I just turned 25....yes twenty freakin five. I have nothing to show for myself over the last 7 years since I graduated high school. I've had a couple of good jobs here and there, but nothing to really smile at and consider a career. Does anyone else feel this way? I feel like I am lost in space with no idea where to go. I really wish I paid more attention during all of those career and personal planning courses I was forced to take in high school....Hmm...No better perspective than hindsight right?

Well, enough whining here. I am making a personal pledge to myself that I will work on myself this year and find a direction. I am tired of second-guessing myself and doubting my abilities. I am a lot smarter and more talented than I have ever given myself credit for. This crappy job has shown my everything I don't want to do for a career! I need to kick my butt into gear of I will be doing jobs like this for the rest of my life! My heart, soul and brain can't handle that! So, here I go....soul searching away...Any suggestions?

I Suck At This....

So again, I have neglected to update my blog for a month-long stretch of time. I have been super busy at work because wedding season has begun! Last count, we were hosting over 80 weddings this summer at Rockwater...I never had the bride gene to begin with, so I think I am going to be completely, fully, 100% sick of weddings by September! Lol! I have already had my fill of scary bridezillas, and it's only June! Eeek! I kid, I kid, most of them are pretty decent and easy-going, we have only had a couple of major hissy fits from the brides. It is hard to handle sometimes, because I understand just how important wedding days are to the bride, but on the other hand, we host over 80 brides this summer....It feels like I work at a wedding factory sometimes! Oh well, c'est la vie at the Rockwater Resort! It's going to be a long, hard, sometimes really frustrating summer, but I am determined to live it up and enjoy myself!

So I hope to stick with updating more often, but I'm not sure if anyone is really interested in it anymore, or if anyone actually comes on here....*crickets* (I kind of think I'm the only one who ever comes on here lol!) Oh well, I guess I will keep updating for myself! :)