Stuck in a Rut/New Beginnings

As you can tell from my post below, I have been pretty busy at the Rockwater trying to hold down the fort as over 80 brides storm in and out this summer. I have been at this job for almost 6 months, and it has been a very rocky road. I absolutely loathed the job for the first few months because it is incredibally stressfull (to me, maybe not everyone). It has slowly gotten better because a lot of really amazing staff members have been hired for the summer season and they brighten my day, everyday. I'm not sure what I am going to do when they all go home/back to uni in September. I don't know if the job is worth it if I am unhappy everyday. Hmmm...things to ponder...

Anyways, back to the title of this post. I have been stuck in a rut the last few years. I have never been one of those people who knew in their heart what they wanted to do with their life since they were 5 years old. I have no burning desire, or passion that leads me in any particular direction. I always just thought "whatever, I'm young, I can figure that all out later!"....Yeah well, somewhere along the line I fell asleep behind the wheel. In May I woke up. I just turned 25....yes twenty freakin five. I have nothing to show for myself over the last 7 years since I graduated high school. I've had a couple of good jobs here and there, but nothing to really smile at and consider a career. Does anyone else feel this way? I feel like I am lost in space with no idea where to go. I really wish I paid more attention during all of those career and personal planning courses I was forced to take in high school....Hmm...No better perspective than hindsight right?

Well, enough whining here. I am making a personal pledge to myself that I will work on myself this year and find a direction. I am tired of second-guessing myself and doubting my abilities. I am a lot smarter and more talented than I have ever given myself credit for. This crappy job has shown my everything I don't want to do for a career! I need to kick my butt into gear of I will be doing jobs like this for the rest of my life! My heart, soul and brain can't handle that! So, here I go....soul searching away...Any suggestions?

I Suck At This....

So again, I have neglected to update my blog for a month-long stretch of time. I have been super busy at work because wedding season has begun! Last count, we were hosting over 80 weddings this summer at Rockwater...I never had the bride gene to begin with, so I think I am going to be completely, fully, 100% sick of weddings by September! Lol! I have already had my fill of scary bridezillas, and it's only June! Eeek! I kid, I kid, most of them are pretty decent and easy-going, we have only had a couple of major hissy fits from the brides. It is hard to handle sometimes, because I understand just how important wedding days are to the bride, but on the other hand, we host over 80 brides this summer....It feels like I work at a wedding factory sometimes! Oh well, c'est la vie at the Rockwater Resort! It's going to be a long, hard, sometimes really frustrating summer, but I am determined to live it up and enjoy myself!

So I hope to stick with updating more often, but I'm not sure if anyone is really interested in it anymore, or if anyone actually comes on here....*crickets* (I kind of think I'm the only one who ever comes on here lol!) Oh well, I guess I will keep updating for myself! :)

Happy Mother's Day!

I know I'm early, but I work on weekends and will be back at home in Sechelt for Mother's Day this year. I came over on my days off and to celebrate Momma's day with the family. I'm making dinner tonight, so I started off with a homemade mango salsa (I am adding fresh avocado right before I serve it), mmmmm....So good! The pork is in the crock-pot for pulled-pork sandwiches tonight! I don't know what vegetarian equivalent I am making for myself. Hmm...what to make? I'll try to post pics of dinner later.

Thoughts...

Over the last year or so I have been periodically reading Eat, Live, Run, an amazing lifestyle blog written by Jenna Weber. I love checking her blog to see the neat, healthy recipes she comes up with. She really is a wonderful source of motivation for me to become a healtheir vegetarian and a more active person. I hadn't checked her blog for a few weeks, so I was heartbroken last night to read that her 19-year-0ld brother suddenly passed away in late April due to an accidental gunshot to the head. Please keep the Weber's in your thoughts as they travel through this difficult journey together. Today, Jenna and her parents are all getting tattoos in John's memory. Jenna will be posting pics of their tattoo adventure on her blog soon! http://eatliverun.com/

Stanley Park!

Yesterday Cael and I went to Stanley Park in Vancouver (pics below) because it was the most gorgeous, sunny, warm day of the year. I have been seriously slacking in the photography department, so I decided to bring the camera along and get some cool pics. I really wanted to go to Stanley Park because it has the most amazing lagoon that is full of different birds. I really wanted to see the swans (my favorites!). At first I didn't see any swans, so I was a little bummed, but there are so many others birds to see. We walked the trail around the lagoon for maybe 2 minutes, when we came across a momma swan sitting on her nest literally a foot off the trail! The park staff has put up a small mesh fence so no one could bother her. I stood on my tippy toes and used the zoom to get as close to her as possible! I was so excited! After getting a ton of pics of momma swan, we moved along and stumbled across some little mischevious raccoon babies! They were so cute crossing the logs! A few minutes later I was taking pics of Cael walking behind me on the trail, when I noticed a little photo creeper spying on him about 10 feet back....It was a hilarious little raccoon following us! I got a cute shot of him peeping through the trees at me! I was shocked that he came so close, but I guess living in Stanley Park the animals see a lot of people, so they are not shy at all! Anyways, the little guy turned around and I was shocked to see the poor little guy had NO TAIL!!! I have no idea why, I just hope it wasn't due to a trap someone set :( Last, but not least, we came upon a log with Mr. Turtle just lounging in the nice afternoon sun. Apparently, when people decide they don't want their turtles anymore, they release them into the lagoon at the park. Not cool, but it is kind of neat to see the big guys just soaking up the sun!

Stanley Park!

Mini Update

So I haven't blogged for a couple of weeks because I started my new job at the resort. Unfortunately, I am not feelin it at all! I don't like the work, (it is surprisingly stressful and busy), and the hours are awful! I am so not used to shift work, so the whole 2pm-10:30/11pm shift has thrown me through a loop. I am very much looking for something (anything!!!) else that would suite me much better. I applied for a couple of neat positions at a local animal hospital and school district, so I am keeping my fingers crossed either of those work out. I've also come down with the most horrible virus that is making me cough like there's no tomorrow! It sucks so bad! I went to the walk-in clinic in town and I had to wait 3 bloody hours to see a doctor! Oh my god, this tiny little itty bitty town is driving me crazy! Hahaha! I am having a rough couple of months adjusting going from a city of 2.5 million (Vancouver), to glorious little Sechelt (8,000 people). Oh well, I chose to come out here, so I am going to do my best to enjoy it! I can't wait for summer to come, b/c the Coast is so much better when it's warm and sunny! Come on summer, come on!!!